TOBP!!

I've had enough!! Yes, even the title of this entry is "TOBP!!" (Tired of being pregnant!!) I can no longer sleep through the night, my back hurts and my hip aches so bad sometimes I can't even move it. My stomach is never going to heal properly unless she comes out, and my patience has grown so thin that I can't bare to be alone anymore for fear of doing something stupid. Not to mention I'm scared to death at the sheer size of this child, and I do not want to be alone when I finally go into labor.

I hate to admit it, but there are some days I'm so frustrated and so depressed, that even knowing that it's all going to be worth it in just a few short days ISN'T HELPING. Neither is the fact that my friends and family who were all chomping at the bit to tell me how I can "help" labor are now telling me "Good things come to those who wait". Guess what, I waited PAST my time with Skyler. Waiting doesn't help anything. Can't I ever have anything "normal" or "how it's supposed to be" even once?

My mood swings are getting so unbearable that I'm having a hard time keeping them to myself. You say I shouldn't hide them, that it's not healthy, but it's safer if I keep them hidden. Otherwise I'd probably be in jail for assault. (Everything is fine with me and Ross and Skyler, but there are a few people on my "Shit List".) I mean it took my Aunt Dawn coming from Jersey to get my mother to call me and come visit us. Seriously? Should it have taken that much? I'll probably never get the car seat/ stroller combo that she promised me for Bailey. Right now I'm borrowing a car seat from Valerie. Atleast I can now tolerate Valerie. To a point. Only because she's actually been quite helpful when she didn't have to be. But she's not able to lie to me without being caught, and she's unable to "back out" of anything she says she's going to do for us/with us because she needs us too. (Long story, I may delve into that after Bailey comes.)

Anyway, I just needed a place to rant and rave today. I'm sorry that's all I'm here for, and that there's not much else to report, but that's how I feel about life these days. SSDD and all that.