Bailey's Birth: Paraphrased

I'm sorry I haven't posted in a VERY long time. This "Mommy to two" thing is taking a lot of getting used to! I noticed I had not posted details of Bee's birth, shortly after writing a quick synopsis for one of my "Mommy Groups" on Facebook. So here goes.  I'll copy/paste it to here, and fill in the details at a later date.

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My little Bee caused some trouble. She was 10 days overdue, and my doctor wanted me to go another 2 weeks before my next appointment, which caused me to break down in tears, and my hubby to darn near strangle the doctor. Once we got the induction scheduled, I felt a lot better. We were told to call the hospital at 6 to make sure they'd have a room for us, which they did. We go in at 8, I get strapped with the IV and the pitocin and the monitors and all that fun stuff. Pitocin didn't kick in for a while so they up it. A few hours later the anesthesiologist comes in for the epi, and leaves. Once the epi kicked in, they had to shut it off. I went numb from the chin down, and got ice cold. I wasn't dilating much either. They come back in, turn everything off, and wait for my body to "wake back up". Contractions pick back up, but baby's heart rate drops with each one, so they rush to get the doctor, and break my water. They had to put the little monitor on the baby's head to monitor her, but they didn't get it in the right spot, and it stuck to me too. Now I'm laying there in the bed, strapped to an IV, the epi hose still in my back, monitors everywhere, can't move, can't eat, can't drink, catheter in, baby is STUCK, whole 9, and labor slows AGAIN. Fever set in, so they were getting ready to prep me for an emergency c-section. Thankfully I had a smart nurse who remembered my epi was turned OFF, and she let me get up in my bed, and lean over the head, which caused Bailey to drop like she should have much earlier. Not long after that, we were welcoming her stubborn behind into the world with big fat doses of antibiotics for both of us. Chorioamnionitis is NO FUN! We found out shortly after birth she has a heart murmur too. Labor took 20 hours from start to finish. But now she's 8 months old, the size of a 12-15 month old, and is getting smarter everyday!"

Come Back When You Can't Stay So Long!

I'm sorry. It has been FOREVER since I've logged in and posted to my blog. My last posts were from October 2011. It's now February 2012. My little "Bumble Bee" is now 3 months, 1 week old, and is getting bigger everyday. I will take the time to post again later today, but it's 1:05 AM, and I must be getting some sleep. Ms. Bailey will be waking me up in about 4 hours, followed shortly thereafter by Ms. Skyler asking for her breakfast. But maybe now I won't forget my password.. LOL!

38 weeks 5 days (as of TUESDAY) Doctor Appointment

Blood pressure was 108/61 which is slightly higher than it has been for the past month. Weight went down to 211 1/2, which is 5 1/2 lbs. less than last week. I wonder if this means labor is coming soon? Last Tuesday I was told I was "changing and getting ready, dilating and effacing", Saturday when we went to L&D because I thought I was leaking fluids I was told that I'm 1-2 cm dilated. Yesterday I was told that I'm at 2 cm. I don't have much further to go before I'm actually IN labor, but this is the longest part. It could take hours, days, even WEEKS to go from 2-3.


EVICTION NOTICE HAS BEEN SERVED: BAILEY ISABELLA CHAMBERLIN, you have no choice but to vacate the premises. There's more room OUT than IN, and you're hurting me where you are. I have a nice comfy crib, playpen, bassinet, swing, and carseat for you to explore, now GET OUT HERE!

TOBP!!

I've had enough!! Yes, even the title of this entry is "TOBP!!" (Tired of being pregnant!!) I can no longer sleep through the night, my back hurts and my hip aches so bad sometimes I can't even move it. My stomach is never going to heal properly unless she comes out, and my patience has grown so thin that I can't bare to be alone anymore for fear of doing something stupid. Not to mention I'm scared to death at the sheer size of this child, and I do not want to be alone when I finally go into labor.

I hate to admit it, but there are some days I'm so frustrated and so depressed, that even knowing that it's all going to be worth it in just a few short days ISN'T HELPING. Neither is the fact that my friends and family who were all chomping at the bit to tell me how I can "help" labor are now telling me "Good things come to those who wait". Guess what, I waited PAST my time with Skyler. Waiting doesn't help anything. Can't I ever have anything "normal" or "how it's supposed to be" even once?

My mood swings are getting so unbearable that I'm having a hard time keeping them to myself. You say I shouldn't hide them, that it's not healthy, but it's safer if I keep them hidden. Otherwise I'd probably be in jail for assault. (Everything is fine with me and Ross and Skyler, but there are a few people on my "Shit List".) I mean it took my Aunt Dawn coming from Jersey to get my mother to call me and come visit us. Seriously? Should it have taken that much? I'll probably never get the car seat/ stroller combo that she promised me for Bailey. Right now I'm borrowing a car seat from Valerie. Atleast I can now tolerate Valerie. To a point. Only because she's actually been quite helpful when she didn't have to be. But she's not able to lie to me without being caught, and she's unable to "back out" of anything she says she's going to do for us/with us because she needs us too. (Long story, I may delve into that after Bailey comes.)

Anyway, I just needed a place to rant and rave today. I'm sorry that's all I'm here for, and that there's not much else to report, but that's how I feel about life these days. SSDD and all that.

Quotes to Tell My Children

"No one else will ever know the strength of my love for you. After all, you're the only one who knows what my heart sounds like from the inside." ~ author unknown

Bailey's Movements

Warning!! Belly movements in this video may make some people squeamish! (and PLEASE ignore the hideous belly button!!) I wanted to show how forcefully Ms. Bailey moves around inside of my stomach, for those of my friends and family who could not be here to see her or feel her. Thanks for watching!!

Ms. Bailey is on her way!

Had another successful doctor's appointment yesterday, 10-18-2011. I was informed that I have gained another 6 1/4 pounds, bringing the total gained so far up to 34 pounds. My blood pressure continues to be "really good" according to the nurse, at 100/56. Bailey measures at 38 weeks, which would be three days ahead as of yesterday, being that I was only 37 weeks 4 days. Which is fine by me. I am not worried at all about her like I was with Skyler, who was having trouble getting bigger. On a really good note, I have started dilating and effacing, meaning Bailey is getting my cervix ready for delivery. I'm a little scared, but I'm coming to terms with it, because I keep making myself think about how wonderful it's going to be to hold her in my arms. Ross seems to be getting excited as well, even though we're not exactly prepared for her financially. But, the main thing we need for her is diapers and wipes, we have just about everything else.

I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET HER!

Bringing Home My Baby Bumble Bee

That's right. Bumble Bee. I always said I would never give my children a nickname I couldn't stand. Bailey, however, has become known as Bumble Bee. Why? Her Nana gave us a onesie for her that's really more like a costume, and it's a bee. And, because the more I pay attention to the pokes and jabs I feel from her, she really does feel like a bee sometimes.

There are 21 days left until my due date. I'm scared SHITLESS. I keep having the feeling that either Bailey or I will not make it through this delivery. Might be because it's October, and everyone seems hell bent on reminding me that 1 in 4 babies don't make it home. I know this. I've lost more than my heart can handle. I don't think I'd survive the loss of another child, but I know that no matter what, I have to. No choices. I have to survive for Skyler. I have to be here for Ross.

Skyler's 6th birthday is tomorrow. October 14th. I'm praying to God that I don't go into labor this weekend, as it will probably be the last weekend that Skyler has me to herself. We planned a birthday party at McDonalds for her on Saturday. Afterwards, we're probably going to be taking Skyler shopping so that she can spend her birthday money.

After this weekend, I wouldn't care if I went into labor Sunday morning. Skyler would have had her birthday by then, and we wouldn't have to cancel it, or reschedule it, and she wouldn't already have issues with the baby because of something she couldn't understand. I am hoping, as all mothers do, that my labor goes swiftly and safely. I want my baby to be born alive, and healthy. I want to bring her home. I want to feel her weight and warmth in my arms. My body is tired. I understand this. I believe I have been trying to do everything I can to prepare myself emotionally and physically for this delivery. I know it's going to hurt like hell, but it will be worth it, so very worth the pain, blood and tears when I get to hold my sweet baby Bailey.

Before I Was A Mom

BEFORE I WAS A MOM:

Author Unknown

Before I was a Mom
I made and ate hot meals.
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom,
I slept as late as I wanted
And never worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was Mom
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys or forgot words of lullabies.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on
Pooped on
Spit on
Chewed on
Peed on
Or pinched by tiny fingers

Before I was a Mom
I had complete control of:
My thoughts
My body
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child
So that doctors could do tests
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
When I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
Could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a Mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
Could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay
I had never known the warmth
The joy
The love
The heartache
The wonder
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

6 weeks left!

Dates and numbers:
There are 42 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 238 days pregnant.
You are 7.8 months pregnant.
You are in your 8th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)


Your baby weighs about 4.4 pounds at this point. The crown-to-rump length of your baby is approximately 12 inches and the total length is around 19.4 inches. Measuring from the top of your uterus to your bellybutton is 5.2 inches. Total weight gain at this point of pregnancy is usually 22 to 28 pounds.

With the exception of crying, your baby is capable of doing everything that a newborn baby will do. Your baby is restricted now inside of the uterus, but still can kick and move. Your baby sleeps a lot of the time, just as newborn babies do. Your baby's eyes move in the manner of REM sleep and researchers believe that babies can dream vividly in uterus. When your baby is awake, she is listening, feeling and learning. There are billions of neurons in the brain that make trillions of connections. Your baby will probably have settled into the birth position by now and your caregiver can most likely tell which way your baby is presenting. If your baby were to be born now, the lungs would probably be strong enough to function properly, but your baby may still need extra care from specially trained doctors and nurses.

During these last few weeks of pregnancy, most women experience an increased urge to urinate. The uterus puts a lot of pressure on the bladder and can send you to the restroom frequently. Your uterus has actually grown 500 times throughout your pregnancy! Red blood cell production catches up with the production of plasma and physiological anemia may begin to fade at this time.

Your baby's eyes open during alert times and close during sleep. The eye color is usually blue, regardless of the permanent color as pigmentation is not fully developed. The final formation of eye pigmentation requires exposure to light and usually happens a few weeks after birth.

Above taken from www.I-am-pregnant.com

Today we are 33 weeks 6 days. 6 short weeks and it will be my due date. Not that this means much, we all know they're just "estimates". Skyler went a week over hers.

Ross and I decided to change the baby's name again. Her name will be Bailey Isabella Chamberlin. We wanted to go with something WE like, not based on the opinions and input from everyone else. I got tired of hearing "I don't like it", or "why don't you pick ----".

I have been experiencing cramping and back pain for two days now, but I'm not in labor yet. This is just the beginning. The baby feels like she is going to be a big baby. I can feel her from under my ribs, down to my pelvis. I do not know as of yet if she is head down. She's fairly active. Yesterday at our doctor appointment we had to do a Non Stress Test (NST) due to low heartbeat and decreased fetal movement. I was terrified. I thought something was wrong with my baby. I know what it's like to lose a pregnancy early on, I do not want to find out what it's like to lose a pregnancy so close to delivering, or deliver a "sleeping" baby. I have gone through so much in this pregnancy. I have been reunited with family members, I have gained new friends, lost a few "friends", Skyler started pregnancy, Ross and I are a lot closer in our relationship, and I feel like a lot of it has to be because of the baby. I call her my special baby. Not because there's anything wrong with her, but just because of everything that has happened.

We had family pictures done. I had won a portrait package from Wal-Mart, and they turned out very well. Corona was with us as well. They are "true" family pictures.

31 Weeks ~ Not sure what's going on...

"Dates and numbers:
There are 60 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 220 days pregnant.
You are 7.2 months pregnant.
You are in your 8th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)


Your baby is continuing to grow each week that you remain pregnant. Your baby's crown-to-rump length is nearly 11.2 inches and total length is approximately 18 inches. Your baby weighs approximately 3.5 pounds at this point. Your uterus is about 4.4 inches above your bellybutton and continues to get larger. An average weight gain at this point is between 21 and 27 pounds. The weight that you gain is made up of your baby, placenta, blood supply, uterus, breasts, fat, water storage and amniotic fluid.

Because the ligaments and muscles supporting the small of your back relax and loosen in order to get ready for childbirth, your back may be aching from now on. There is usually nothing that can be done to prevent backaches, only to make them more comfortable. Many women get heartburn during these last few weeks of pregnancy because the oversized uterus leaves less room for the stomach and the contents within the stomach. Eating smaller, more frequent meals can help relieve the discomforts of heartburn.

This week marks an incredible milestone in your baby's lung development. Before now, the air sacs and branches in your baby's lungs were present but not functional. The lungs were not able to inflate properly. However, now there is surfactant being produced in your baby's lungs. Surfactant prevents your baby's lungs from collapsing outside of the uterus and the baby is able to take in air and breathe properly. The fetal ear is almost completely developed both inside and out. Your baby can hear your voice and other familiar sounds that she will recognize after birth. Your baby is putting on white fat under the skin and the skin's color is pink instead of red at this point. Your baby's fingernails have grown to the end of her fingers and she may scratch herself while she is in the womb. " ~ Copied from http://www.i-am-pregnant.com/Pregnancy/calendar/pregnancy.php


Holy crap! Being pregnant this time is starting to HURT! I have almost NO space left in my uterus from what it feels like, and the Baby is constantly in my ribs, making it hard to move, eat, and breathe.

BUT: I love being pregnant, I love this baby. I wouldn't give her up for the world~ :)

3 days until.....

Dates and numbers:
There are 143 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 137 days pregnant.
You are 4.5 months pregnant.
You are in your 5th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)

In 3 days, we find out who this little one is. We're both hoping for a little boy. I've wanted to have a son since I learned "where babies come from".

I started a game event on Facebook, it was originally supposed to be done at my baby shower, but I won't be able to keep Baby's gender a secret. So, I made it possible for friends and family to guess what Baby will be.

On top of all that, we're moving. Supposed to happen next weekend, but I'm really not sure if that's going to happen. But Ross and I will have our own space. Corona won't be with us, due to her schooling, but Skyler will be there. She'll have her own room. I'm not sure I like that. I was pretty set on it being hers and Corona's room. Baby is going to be in my room with me for a while, until about 6 months, as long as Baby doesn't have sleep apnea like Ross. I've started doing *some* research on Sleep Apnea, more specifically cases in newborns. It's scary.

With this move coming up, I'm not sure at all when my baby shower will be. I know I wanted to plan it for as soon as I found out Baby's gender, but that just won't work. I don't know if we will have the gas to travel so soon after moving and shopping.

The shopping part I'm dreading. I am already having the same Florescent Light issues I had when I was pregnant with Skyler. Too much exposure makes me feel sick and dizzy. And if I ignore THOSE signs, then I get migraines, which usually knock me off my feet for a few days. Not good at all, especially when pregnant/ home alone with the kids.

I'll continue more later, I have to get the kitchen cleaned, and get some rest.

18w 4d

Dates and numbers:
There are 149 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 131 days pregnant.
You are 4.3 months pregnant.
You are in your 5th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)

I've been feeling more movements lately, which has taken a LOT off my mind. I'm still finding myself in denial about being pregnant again, especially when my mother makes a pregnancy comment, or simply says that I'm pregnant. I often catch myself about to say "No, I'm not! There's no way!!" When in fact, this baby is about halfway ready to make his/her presence known.

I have an ultrasound on the 15th. A BIG ultrasound. We're going to try to find out if this baby is a boy or a girl, and make sure there's no defects/anomalies. I'm sure Baby's fine, I'm just excited to know the gender! I may finally have managed to carry my son past 13 weeks! My little boy might be on his way! Even Ross wants a boy. We haven't decided on ANY names yet, I think I'm going to wind up naming this baby myself.

Baby has been felt moving for a while now, but June 2nd, I felt, with my hand, Baby kicked me in the stomach. It wasn't very hard, but it was definitely Baby. I was laying on the couch, not really on my back, not really on my right side, but laid back into the corner of the couch, and baby kicked the left side of my stomach where my hand had been resting. :)

There's also a post on my Facebook from May 17th, about the baby kicking me in the lowest ribs, and another post from May 16th, that says So, today is 5-16, a month ago today is when I felt the little one move for the first time. :) Still kicking as of today, getting stronger every time." So, the first time I had felt Baby move was APRIL 16th, and I was 11weeks 1day, not unusual, Skyler moved for the first time about then too, with doctor confirmation that what I had been feeling was in fact, the baby moving :)

The meaning of a rainbow

Rainbow...
It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. It means that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.

So Blah Today...

Dates and numbers:
There are 172 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 108 days pregnant.
You are 3.5 months pregnant.
You are in your 4th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)


I just don't know what has me in this disconnected kind of mood, but it's driving me crazy. I don't want to do anything, I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want my daughter to interact with me today, I just want to sit and be pregnant.

I've started working on my Baby Shower plans. I have to figure out where we're going to have it, but the basic plans and guest list are there.

Today's Special Event

There are 182 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 98 days pregnant.
You are 3.2 months pregnant.
You are in your 4th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)

Upon my mother's arrival home from work, I felt my baby move with my hand. I was laying in a rather odd position on the end of her bed, with my feet still touching the floor. I had looked over at my mother, and laid my hand across my stomach. I was touching the baby. And I know it was the baby, because as soon as it clicked in my mind that I was touching something that I don't normally feel, it moved and I could no longer feel it with my hand. :) Not much longer and other people will be able to feel my baby move. I can't wait to share that experience with Skyler! :)

13 weeks 4 days

Dates and numbers:
There are 184 days until your due date on November 03, 2011.
You are 96 days pregnant.
You are 3.1 months pregnant.
You are in your 4th month of pregnancy.
Your 1st trimester: January 27, 2011 to April 27, 2011. (0 - 12 weeks)
Your 2nd trimester: April 28, 2011 to August 10, 2011. (13 - 27 weeks)
Your 3rd trimester: August 11, 2011 to November 03, 2011. (28 - 40 weeks)

I'm getting closer to the point I don't have to worry so much anymore. I'm feeling relief, yet more anxiety at the same time. I feel the baby move, but since this early in a pregnancy a baby's movements are very sporadic, and not very strong, it does nothing to ease any of my anxiety. I still have to worry about going to my next appointment and finding out my little one has died inside of me. I finally got to hear baby's heartbeat on 4-28, and it was a perfect 152 bpm, but that was almost a week ago. I can't wait to get my own fetal doppler. I want to know Baby is ok EVERY day. Not just twice a month when I have appointments. My next appointment is coming up soon, May 9th I get to meet Dr. Foster, who hopefully will be the one to deliver my baby. I am not sure what else to expect at this appointment, because I've never had to switch doctors before. Not with an Obstetrician anyway.

I've stopped going to my baby classes. I couldn't continue to go when I had no guaranteed way of getting home twice a week. I miss the classes, I miss Pilar and Julie. I miss earning baby bux and getting my baby's stuff for nothing but a little hard work. At least I was fortunate enough to get the bedding set I wanted to get before I stopped going though. I just have to find a blanket for it. The set I bought is the Gap Teddy Bear collection, it came with the Bumper pad, Sheet, Crib Skirt, Height chart, Message board, and Teddy bear lamp. It's blue brown and white. Not exactly "neutral" colors, but both genders can use this set. It's not too "boyish". I'll post pictures when I can get it into a crib and get it set up.

I have not been getting to spend ANY time with Ross. We have now determined it is due to his mother and his boss. Whenever he has an opportunity to come down here and spend time with me and the kids, they always have some bullshit reason why he can't come. Like yesterday for example, he was fixing to leave work early and come and get me, but then his mother said he wasn't allowed, and she gave me a bullshit reason about spending "quiet time" with her two daughters, and her grand daughter, who might one day be my step daughter. She gets to see them EVERY DAY. I haven't seen Ross since March 17th, the week after I told him I am pregnant. My mother has her own little ways of telling me that she doesn't believe I'll ever see him again. She doesn't think he's going to help me with this baby. That I now have two children that are Fatherless. I don't know what to think at this point, but I hope she's wrong. At least for a little while anyway.

Pretty Good Day...

Got to my ultrasound appointment via Marcus, on time. Had to wait at the office though, they were running behind. Not a big deal though, my ultrasound was FREE!! (I love Pregnancy Resources!) Finally got called back about an hour later, and went straight to the ultrasound room, where Ms. Leslie quickly got me through the paperwork, and up onto the table. We did an abdominal ultrasound, and Baby looked kind of like a blob, but definitely BIGGER than the ultrasound done at the Health Department last week. :) Then she switched to the transvaginal ultrasound, and was able to get clear measurements of the baby. I saw my baby move, wave, hiccup, and dance. It was amazing. Then she had Skyler come back into the room, and we looked at the baby together. Ms. Leslie was even kind enough to "personalize" one of the ultrasound pictures for Skyler, with her own private message from the baby. I got 5 pictures of my baby, better than the ONE I got from the health department of just the baby's head, or butt, or whatever that was...

Anyway, I'm feeling pretty good right now, especially knowing my baby's heartbeat is a perfect 170 B/M.

More to write later, I've got homework to do for baby bucks!

Baby Crazy Slideshow

Bad Day...

Had my first big disagreement with Ross earlier this evening. Honestly, it started this afternoon when I was shopping with mom. He called, I told him I couldn't talk, (I just wanted to get the heck out of the store.) told him our usual "I love you, bye", and hung up. Went home, cooked dinner, ate, I called him. He said "I'm at the hospital, I can't talk." (Not a good thing to say, without explanation.) HOURS later, I call him and find out he's at his buddy's house again. Never bothered to tell me what was going on at the hospital, no excuse as to why he didn't call back, just "I'm at David's, I can't talk." (Not a good thing to tell me either, especially after telling me "I'm at the hospital, I can't talk.") So I hang up on him. Sent him a text that said "I'm glad you're having a baby with David. I'm glad he's more important than me. Don't call, I won't answer." (Which means give me time to cool off and I'll call back or text when I calm down.) What does he do?? CALLS immediately. Calls REPETITIVELY. CONTINUOUSLY. My phone had 7 missed calls from him before I finally decided to answer. But not before I had received a voicemail about how I was playing STUPID games. Stupid??? I'M HAVING YOUR BABY, AND THE THING YOU WANT TO DO MOST IS SPEND TIME WITH DAVID!!! Did you think MAYBE I'm feeling a little left out? Tired of not getting to see you even HALF as much as DAVID does? Maybe I need your attention MORE than DAVID does.

I see that I went from VENTING to RANTING at him like he's here, so I'm going to take that as my cue to quit.

I hope to God he keeps his promises to start sending me money, or he's not going to like the way things turn out.